Family and Friends,
Oh what a week it's been! Let me start by saying I love my mission. It's so hard and frustrating and I don't feel human anymore and I've learned that when God asks us to sacrifice everything he's not kidding. Romans 1:20 talks about sacrificing your body to the Lord... well that's taken literally when you serve in Salt Lake, haha.
I got to go to the women's conference in Salt Lake with the B girls! Kim didn't come... her anxiety levels can't handle the crowds. But it was fun to be there! Nice job with Battle of the Books Anna- that's awesome! The member who sent mom the picture last night is actually a guy.... his name's Brother Obray- he sells diamonds for a living, just saying. We're teaching his sister-in-law, she's the one who's a lesbian and working on rebaptism. Sorry that sounds rude and judgmental kind of, but that's how to sum up her situation quickly. I love her though! She's the nicest lady ever.
I found out that Evan’s (Amanda's husband) mission president is in my stake and we spend a lot of time with his family so that's cool. Also- Kacie's mission president in Georgia is originally from this stake, how funny is that?
Cool story for the week..... ever since I've been in the area (4 months) we've been teaching a young couple in their 20's with a baby. Their names are Brody and Tara. They are both members of the church but haven't been active since high school. They're kinda rebels.... like they used to be tattoo artists and live kinda wild lives but they're so awesome! We teach them once a week. Since we've been working with them.... they have made absolutely no progress. They don't pray or read their scriptures, much less come to church! They are just totally neutral. In lessons they'll make some comments if we call on them but they just don't seem interested.... so multiple times I've just lost it and said "we want to keep teaching you and help you if we can, but if you don't care or have the desire and you aren't going to do your part, we won't keep coming back" (that's the "drop talk"- I’m pro at that). And every time they're like, "no, we like you coming by, we'll come back to church when we're ready." It's just dumb and frustrating. It's a waste of time but we don't have many people to teach right now so I don't want to drop them. So I’m on my last straw with them this week, right? Out of ideas. We've tried teaching them the investigator lessons, teaching prayer and scripture study, the atonement, the importance of church attendance.... bringing a bunch of different people in the ward to try and fellowship them... like I've tried everything. So I decided we'd just start reading the Book of Mormon with them. We'd given them one months ago, but of course they haven't touched it. So we did a little intro to the Book of Mormon, talked about what it is, who wrote it, what's in it.... read parts of the intro, then we just started chapter 1, each taking turns and reading a verse. We would stop after every couple verses and explain what's going on, etc. We brought a new fellowshipper this time- the ward mission leader. I was kinda worried to do this because he's older and they're young and hip and rebellious and would have nothing in common... but he made some really good comments and Brody especially really liked having him there. We read chapter 1 and I said, "okay is that good for tonight or should we keep going?" Brody goes .... "can I be honest?" (Now's about the time my heart stops beating and I forget to breathe and just break down crying almost.....) "I haven't touched this book since I was 15. I haven't opened the one you gave me months ago. But tonight I'm actually understanding it and it makes sense." WHAT?! Okay we'll keep going then! We read a little more and stopped in the middle of the chapter so they'd have to keep going. They really liked it, it was by far the best lesson we've ever had with them. Then I asked Brody to pick someone to say the closing prayer and he said, "sure I can do that" and started saying the prayer... he must have misunderstood me! After a wonderful prayer, he said that's the first time he's prayed out loud in years. I don't know how I never realized it.... but he has NEVER said the prayer in all the time we've been teaching them- not once! It was seriously crazy,,,,,, but wait- it gets better, guys. On the way out the door, he asked the ward mission leader if he had any spare dress pants. WHAT?! It was too good to be true- I was freaking out. It was seriously the craziest thing ever- I don't think you guys understand.... and that single moment right there gave me a testimony of the Book of Mormon. The end.
Remember Sio? Well..... some drama has come up. So he lives in Salt Lake, right? But his girlfriend who he has a baby with lives in our stake. Her name is Dallas and she lives with her aunt and uncle and their kids. Well a couple weeks ago Sio called and said he couldn't meet with us anymore because something happened with the family.... okay. Well we got permission to go down to Salt Lake to meet with him and heard the whole story...... (this might need to be edited, be warned, it's really messed up). So long story short...... Dallas, Sio's girlfriend, is having an affair with her aunt's husband who she lives with. Sio tried to tell Dallas's aunt who he's close with, just so she would be aware.... she freaked out and isn't allowing him back in the house. Dallas is moving across the country with Sio's baby; proof she's guilty if you ask me. Anyways.... it's been SO hard on Sio. He was SO CLOSE to baptism and then the perfect Mormon family who was giving him all this support and being a good example to him turns out to have this big dark secret. Like what?? He just cried and cried to us and I had no idea what to say.... I just told him he needs to turn to Heavenly Father and everything will work out okay. I told him he NEEDS the Holy Ghost in his life now more than ever. Please keep him in your prayers, and Dallas's family. I NEVER in 50 billion years would have seen that coming......... they are seriously perfect. It's sad though because this is Dallas's aunt's second marriage- she's such a sweetheart and her first husband was really abusive.... it's just sad.
We are down to 3 investigators and 2 less active families to teach. That is terrible, hahahhaha! I feel like a failure and feel like God won't give us more people to teach until I take care of the ones he's already given me.... I feel like I work so hard, I try to be obedient and do the right things but it's never good enough. I know it's not my fault but it's HARD! The good news is- the Bleaks are reactivated and going to all of church now. That is a MIRACLE. Hopefully good things will start to happen. We're begging our investigators to go to Conference with us..... we'll see. It breaks my heart to think I might be getting transferred out of the area- honestly just because I'm going to miss Holly Bingham so much! She's seriously my best friend and it's been SO fun to live with her!
Have a good week, make good choices, keep the law of chastity, read the Book of Mormon, eat healthy. Love you all!
Heidi